I’ve been struggling for a few weeks now, and it’s not for any reason I can really name. Somehow I am entrenched in feeling helpless in controlling anything. I have been overwhelmed, over stimulated, short, unfocused, a little panicky, my nervous system isn’t doing the job I want it to. (Which is basically to shut down all my feelings and let me power through as usual) I feel like no matter what I do, the kids want to rebel, or defy. And I sit here frustrated, asking God how

43 years since Mark Andrew Thomas came into this world. The 6th time this day has passed since his death. Most days I walk through life...

The thing about me that drove Mark the craziest is that I am independent. He couldn't always handle that I made my own decisions, that I...

Election results prayer I realize this morning that I didn’t mentally prepare myself for the results of this election. My 14 year old...

Today I put on my rings and I went to the cemetery. The cemetery is where my husband Mark’s physical body lies. His physical body failed...

·         Our lives on earth will sometimes not make sense. Pain, hardship, questions, and confusion are part of living in the fallen...

For the majority of my life I have had two constant companions; Jesus and running. These two companions of mine have never left me, they...

Losing your most important person in life changes how you view the world, how you see grief, how you respond to almost every situation....

I am sitting here on the floor in my room, crying. I lost a friend about a year ago. She is still alive, she just isn't mine anymore....

I walked the dog today. It's Saturday today, and my kids aren't home, so I walked him a little extra long. We walked across Silver Lake...

I have this urge to keep track, to remember all of the things that Mark loved. There is no guarantee that this post will ever truly be...

It has been a rough few weeks on my head and my heart. I have been consumed with sadness, worry and hurt. In the world of widowhood they...

It has been a while since I have shared a Monday Mark Memory, but tonight's popped into my head so I figured it was meant for me to share...